The Hustle In Me

Trying to grind my way up

This isn't going to be a long post where I talk about my innermost feelings in detail but there is something I want you people out there to know. I can't do anything by myself. And when I try I usually end up making things worse then they were when I started out. I think that I can do it on my own and figure things out for myself. I am an independent woman, I don't need anyone's help! And then it is like walking up the down escalator or climbing a wet metal slide in the summer. Pointless and painful.

And then it's like when you do something our mom specifically told you not to do and end up getting hurt and says. "See, I told you what would happen. Ain't no point in crying now, that's what you get." The cool thing is that even though I know I deserved it for being an idiot and God knows, He'll never be like, "I told you so." Isn't God amaze-balls? Yes, I said amaze-balls. Get over it. God doesn't hold our failures over our heads, he picks us back up and tells us that if we focus our energy and attention on Him we don't have to keep falling into traps along the wayside. All He wants us to do is pay attention to Him and isn't that what we should be doing anyway? No shade, because we all do it, but I want to be 100% real with everyone out there. I don't do it all the time but I should and it's going to take some time but I'm willing to put in the work.

Psalm 121:1-2
"I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help. (2) My help cometh from the LORD, which made heaven and earth."

If we know where our help comes from why don't we focus on that instead of our problems? How many people out there have heard these two verses but had no idea where they came from? Hebrews 12:1-2 talks about the race we all have to run. We have to lay aside the weights and the sin that keep us from having faith in God and what He has said. We do this by gaining endurance in our faith, by living it out everyday. When you practice having faith, soon you won't have to practice it anymore and you can run the race with your eyes on the Godhead instead of turning to every distraction that pops up.

 Sometimes you hear things over and over and begin to get desensitized to it but never allow yourself to stop taking the Word seriously. It is our instruction manual for life and without it would be like putting together a German IKEA table with no help. And I cannot even imagine doing that.

I don't have to struggle and work to do things all on my own, I have God and an army of angels supporting me. I have a direct line to the Creator when I am in need or want to talk. I have so much support there is no reason for me to do things on my own. Even though I feel like sometimes God is taking too long or isn't following my directions specifically. Focus on God and depend on Him for all your needs even if your inner hustle is telling you you can do it on your own.

Remember this:


Faith doesn't make things easy but it does make them possible and when we have enough faith to stay focused on Him, when we believe in the authority of the Lord it changes us. Ask yourself this question: Am I crazy enough to believe Him? Are you? If you are you won't keep thinking that you can do it on your own or that you can do it better than God. I know that at times I'm so focused on my hustle that I don't give my God the attention and time He deserves. And you can't have a relationship with someone if you never spend time with them. So I will continue to work on my faith and focus on the Lord who wants us to praise like it is already done.

This is the song of the day: Focus by Jor'dan Armstrong

If you have anything you want me to talk about feel free to comment and let me know. I am all for suggestions.